Rebellion

And when the LORD sent you out from Kadesh Barnea, he said, "Go up and take possession of the land I have given you." But you rebelled against the command of the LORD your God. You did not trust him or obey him. (Deuteronomy 9:23 NIV)

The Israelites did not believe that God would enable them to overcome enemies greater than themselves—so they didn’t go.
Lack of faith—>lack of obedience—>rebellion.

When I shy away from doing something God wants me to do because I don’t have the strength or ability and I don’t trust God to supply I am rebellious.

There have been many times in my life when I have rebelled in this way.There have been times when I have felt inadequate to speak up and did not trust God to supply words to speak.  There have been times when I have refused to serve because I was tired and I did not trust God to supply strength.  At other times I have not served because I felt I lacked the necessary abilities and I did not trust God to supply them.  There have been times when I have not prayed for healing because I did not believe God could heal.  At other times I have not prayed for the lost because I have felt them beyond God’s ability to save.  There have been times when I have not given because I did not believe God could supply.  I have at times not led because I am not a natural born leader and I did not have faith the God would lead through me.

There is a balance in all of this.  If I think that I/we can do something, that is pride.
If I/we act like God can’t or won’t act through me/us, that is rebellion.

God, in this land, I want to trust You.  I am unable to lead people to Jesus, but you can lead through me if I obey.  I barely have words to tell people about Jesus, but I trust you to give me the words.  You are the One Who is able to set people free from the power of sin and addictions.  You are the one who can restore broken relationships.  You are One Who can heal.  You are the one who can provide resources for those who lack them.  Help me to have faith to use me in the process.  For this land is in need of healings, restored relationships and freedom from poverty and from bondage to addictions, idols and sin.

We cannot do these things, but You can.  Help us to act like You can.  Help us to not shy away from engaging with these works of the enemy because of our lack of ability or strength.  Help us to obey your calling, even when it is beyond us, because we trust that You have the power to work through us and You have the resources to supply every need.